Miss My Mom :(

I MISS MY  :(   MOM

January 6,2017 What an year 2016 it was….It started with the pain and ended with a pain!

But the pains were different. January 2016 when I was in the ninth month of my pregnancy, due to Cholestasis, I had severe problems and hence was in trouble. But deep in my heart I knew that I am going to attain something. I was about to give life to an individual. God has chosen me to bring one more beautiful soul to this land. I will be soon witnessing a new life emerging from me. Motherhood as I understood is a divine emotion that can’t be put in words. A mother shares the most beautiful & strongest bond with her child.

I was waiting for my life to change with the advent of a new offspring in the family but at the same time I was in a pain to lose the one who gave birth to me. How does nature do this?

I was losing my mom when I was on verge of becoming a mom….How strange are the nature’s games…!

All through her life she lived cheerfully teaching us to enjoy every moment. Make memories of everything we do. We had several tough times but my mom never taught us to sit back and cry, she taught us to accept and fight. To move ahead at our path with the head high. She taught us to be brave, to handle situations and to govern….

Life is not even close to what it was, with her. I miss her all my day at various moments but then I am happy that her suffering from deadly disease ended soon than expected. She was in pain and we could not see her in agony.

“Pain of this parting was a heartache as I knew that we are never going to see you, never going to sit and talk our hearts and never hug you again.”

That feeling of putting your head on mother’s lap cannot be matched to any other feeling in the world.

Ahhh! Unfortunate me…..

I am left all alone….but teachings and the strength you gave me in your last few days was amazing. How could you teach me to stay without you Mom! The wisdom you gave will remain with us all through our lives….

It’s only us who are grief stricken and in sorrow, you are in peace I know MOM……..

Today when I sit and write this for you I just want to say that without you my life has no meaning. I see you and miss you in every breath I take.

Sitting all alone hurts Mom! Why were you in such a hurry to leave us….?

Nobody can feel the pain and agony I feel but I smile because you told me to do so…! J

You win Mom…once again….you win……God could not see you bearing all that pain so he called you…to be with him. You won the battle, the disease lost. Even Cancer could not make you suffer, cry and grieve.

I am happy and see you in each star that twinkles in the night….!

Be safe & happy mom!